A Fresh Pot Brewing

Pocah323
Do I have any takers???

Oh Kay
Morning Pocah, I'll take a cup. How are you doing? Glad to be home?

Pocah323
I'm doing okay...could be better. In a sense, yes, I'm glad to be home...work will keep my mind focused away from other things.

Oh Kay
Uh oh, what's going on?

Pocah323
How are you, Kay? How's the BP and the Chantrix?

Oh Kay
The BP is good! I hadn't taken it in awhile, thought I'd take it last night just because....it kept going & going....the thing must've gotten stuck. LOL! It was good though. The Chantrix is doing it's job. It's hard, but I haven't given up.

Pocah323
Well, remember at the end of August, I told you that I told the ex not to contact me. Well, he started contacting me a week later, and like the idiot I am, I responded. We saw each other 2 wks after...nothing happened...just talking, etc. We then kept in touch via phone calls and text messages...e-mails too. Well, when I went upstate, I saw him both on Tues and Fri. Tues had dinner w/ him alone, and Fri had dinner w/ him and one of his colleagues. I slept over Fri night (nothing happened...didn't want to drive 2 hrs back to my friend's...it was late...11pm...and it's a rural road that I have to drive...no cell service either). Last night, through snooping, I found out that he just re-joined e-Harmony (that's actually how we met).

Pocah323
Have you at least cut down smoking, if not all together?

Pocah323
It's funny...I had to ask you and CD what Chantrix was...now, I see commercials all over the TV for it!! LOL!

Oh Kay
LOL! I know, that's because insurance companies are finally accepting it. I'm down to about a qtr of what I was, so that's really good. I can't seem to completely shake it here at home. When I leave home, they stay here. Well I'm not sure what to tell you about the EHarmony thing. I know that's gotta suck to have found that...but then, you guys weren't really going anywhere either...right? Or were you talking about your relationship when you saw him? Personally, I couldn't see someone that I was in love with this soon...it would be too hard.

Pocah323
Wow, Kay!! That is really good! Too bad you can't hide each individual cig around the house! LOL! Re: the ex. You're right...we weren't going anywhere...and he has the right to be happy. I do seriously want him to find happiness, but at the same time, what stinks is that I still have feelings for him. I'm unlike him: my feelings don't go away overnight. And talking to him and seeing him doesn't help. He doesn't know that I found out, and I won't tell him. I've just decided to not pick up the phone and not respond to text messages...it may sound unfair to not tell him why I'm "not speaking to him", but it's best for me...I need to move on...I don't want to make the same mistakes other people are making. It's funny...I can give good advice, but can't follow it! LOL!

Oh Kay
I think that's the way it is with most people. It's easy to see what someone else should do, not so easy when it comes down to doing it yourself. Just think of it this way, you aren't punishing him, you're being nice to you. It's too hard to get over someone when you're seeing them or talking to them all the time. I could hide them around the house, but I'd have to get really drunk to do it, that way I wouldn't know where I hid them. LOL! My Dr told me that what's going on is that I'm no longer fighting the addiction, but fighting the habit. 33 years is a long time to be putting things in your mouth & then just stop.

Pocah323
Wow! 33 yrs smoking!! Kay, you've prety much been smoking for as long as I've been alive! LOL!

-gypsy-
Morning ladies... thanks for coffee, Pocah! I'm sickie, but CD's doing his best to make me laugh on im, so I'm getting better.

-gypsy-
My first day at work (gonna gloat for a minute) was great... I'm going to love this job. I actually get a desk, and a computer, (and I believe I can get on the board!) The people are good - the perks really are better than I thought... wow...

Pocah323
Yikes, Gypsy! What's wrong? Did you start the new job yet?

Coool Dad
Good morning Pocah, Kay and my poor little sickie Gypsy. I'm take some of that coffee too!!

Pocah323
I guess you answered my question already! I'm glad to hear that you're happy!!!

Pocah323
Morning, CD!! So, now I know why Gypsy isn't starting the morning coffee thread...she's too busy chatting w/ you on IM! LOL!

-gypsy-
I am... and I wonder whose hand I shook of the hundreds yesterday gave me this cruddy stuff... or how many I passed it on to... This is the part I hate about new environments, you have to build up new immunities!

Coool Dad
Yes we're guilty, I actually get up 45 min early so we can have our morning IM time.

-gypsy-
OH no, Pocah, today you beat me by a long shot. I didn't crawl out of bed until 5:30, and was in the shower until after six...

Oh Kay
Oh man, Gypsy, I can't believe I forgot yesterday was your first day! I'm so glad you like it. And weekends off! Woo hoo! Morning Dad! Pocah, you don't have to rub it in. LOL! I know I'm an old prune.

-gypsy-
You are the sexiest old prune I've ever seen Kay!

Oh Kay
Ahhh, thank you Gypsy....

Coool Dad
I know I'm an old prune.Kay your not a old prune, like me you just have a few miles, and like a good wine we just get better with age.

Oh Kay
Are those freeway miles or city miles?

Pocah323
Kay, you're not an old prune...I'm just waking up early...hey, at least I can say I'm waking up early after a good sleep!! LOL!

Coool Dad
Pocah, on the subject, you were taking about, be careful unless you really want to get back with this person, it hurts allot worse the second time around. I have found that I can't do the let's be friends thing after a break up, it's just too hard to keep the old feelings in check. Just be careful.

Coool Dad
Are those freeway miles or city miles? Mine are a 50/50 combination of both. This older model still runs like a top.

Oh Kay
Pocah, I'm glad you got rested. Try not to dwell on this guy....time will do it's job if you let it. Dad....I'm with you. I might have a few dings & dents but I have no problems starting my engine, purrs like a kitten. LOL! (must be the cheerios talking)

Pocah323
Thanks, CD. I do want to get back w/ this person, but he doesn't b/c (1) the distance [the original reason] and (2) he doesn't feel a connection anymore [now that he's been away for 3 months]. He has every right to feel this way, but I hate the fact that I still feel like ****. I try to be a nice person to everyone, but I end up screwing myself instead!

Coool Dad
but I end up screwing myself instead! I can fully understand that, been there done that.

Oh Kay
but I hate the fact that I still feel like ****. Oh Hun, I'm sorry. Yeah, you should definitely block this guy. He's just keeping you around for company until he finds someone else. That's not fair to you. You're really handling it well too...you should be proud of yourself, but you have to let him go so you can heal.

Pocah323
I know you're right, Kay. I've felt like he's been holding on to me for company, as well. I'm not like that...I would not talk to the person...I have others to turn to for company. Anyway, let me get off this moping campaign and head into the shower. I've just updated my e-Harmony profile w/ a new pic...I'll send it to you in a sec for comments.